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It’s awful to love someone you couldn’t have. Even if it mattered very much, uncertainties will always be there. For some things don’t just happen, especially when you’re too afraid to let them. Falling – there was no other word to describe it, but until when? For how long will it last? Nevertheless, you waited. Still, no one came. Why had you set it up this way? Albeit wanting to be pragmatic, you always end up fooling yourself with a dose of coyness.

First Cut is the Deepest

Bluer than blue. Sadder than sad. How long will I have to endure the throbbing you’ve caused me? It was so disheartening to know that I wasn’t enough, or should I say, you’d just gone enough of me. Perhaps, it was my fault in the first place. I was the one who pushed this through, not knowing that I was left fighting and skirmishing alone. You could have told me to go before starting this mess. You should have said no the very first time you had the chance to. Why did you have to leave me hanging in pain without trying to explain everything that happened? You made me believe in lies, you made me learn to love you and hate you at the same time. But nevertheless, you made me find out and discover my strengths and the lessons I have to deal with. After all, here’s to you for making me who I am now, for having me realize how blessed I am with all the people I am left with, for teaching me to pummel it down. And as one of my favorite songs speaks out, “I want you to know that I thank you, for everything that you put me through. Yes I know it sounds funny but thank you. Now, there’s nothing left for me to do but to walk away. Walk away from all this.” </3

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The changeover from being colleagues to being friends transpires gradually. It is indeed a step by step process. We get in touch to proffer familiarity by being gentle, considerate, supportive and affable to each other. We may be poles apart when it comes to our personality, attitudes and beliefs, but it really doesn’t matter as long as we know where to stand and how to appreciate everyone’s worth fairly. Well, most of the time, our co-workers turn out to be vital for our improvement and growth at work. The connection that we enclose with them for the purpose of our job function or any other things helps us to create that personal and professional attachment. Hence, expressing gratitude is quite indispensable. Thank you! Kudos to all of us!

with LOVE, Daar :')

TWIMC

It took a while until you accidentally came. It shouldn’t have mattered, but still, it seems like you’re never there. We both know that it’s not gonna work out in the first place. Atleast we tried. Atleast, we both got inspired. But at the back of my mind, I’m still hoping for the ‘what ifs’, I’m still having this make-believe that somehow, we really deserve each other.

So now, I can only say thank you, sorry, good luck and good bye. Thanks for your time! I just want you to know that I’ll always be thankful that you spent your time just to make me happy even for a short time. I don’t really care if this was all temporary. I’m just here, I’ll always be here. You were the only person who’d ever made me feel loved, and suddenly you took me for granted. I know that most of the time, it was actually my fault. Sorry for being so clingy. Sorry if you always get irritated because of me. Sorry because this is how I’ll always be. I know that by reading this, you’ll say that I always say sorry for no reason. I couldn’t stop blaming myself for being so attached. You know I tried too hard, but it’s just that it’s all I know I have. Well, I wish you good luck. I hope you’ll be happy and successful in your life, even if I will not be a part of it anymore.  But just now, as I listen to sad songs, it seemed like yesterday. Tears strung my eyes and peaked down my face as I sat here waiting, trying to be strong alone. I really don’t want to say good bye, but I know I have to. There’s no ‘Us’ even from the start and there will be no ‘Us’ at the end of this ride. I won’t say good bye just to let go and forget you. But nonetheless, I’ll bid good bye hoping you’ll realize that I am worth the fight. -Daar

by: MISS TAKEN FOR GRANTED

"It hurts when the person that made you feel special yesterday, makes you feel unwanted today."

More often than not, it’s all about the small things that you think won't matter. If you want to keep someone important around you, you should always make her feel it. If there’s anything a woman extremely dislikes, it’s being taken for granted. It should also feel so effortless if you really think that she rightfully deserves your attention.

We, women would always yearn for appreciation. We don’t like going against people we covet to make an impact on or to win them over. We habitually have room for whatever thing you say, and we will do everything we can just to please you in the anticipation of winning your affection. Hearing a small line of compliments from you would mean the world to us.

Moreover, we usually give more than we typically get back. We just don’t know when to stop giving and we can’t help it. That’s why we always end up giving way too much before we even become conscious about it. And by then, it’s perhaps too late for the reason that the person we’re giving it to, may already be taking us for granted. We consequently can’t say ‘NO’ when it comes to the people we truly treasure and love. We have an awfully stiff time waning something to people. We’d rather take risk than decline. You may think we’re just being sweet, caring and too clingy sometimes, but we love genuinely, and that’s a fact.

        But like every other beings, we also get tired of this long-lived dilemma. We usually strive hard in order for us to overcome this feeling of being unnoticed and unappreciated by the people whom we really want to be a part of our lives. So if ever you realize that you have taken us for granted, always remember that you are always free to make it work the way we wanted it to be. And without a doubt, we’re just a text or a phone call away. 

My billet-doux for Essays.ph

                

Billet-doux (French:  literally, sweet note or love letter) I ought to have my word for the day when I was still in college. I search for unusual words that I can use when I am writing. I even scan throughout the dictionary just to look for words that were unfamiliar, have attention-grabbing pronunciations, and especially those who have meanings I can relay to.

I am always fond of writing about everything I am interested and curious about. I am not the type that is proficient about the know-hows in formal writing and stuff, I just usually jot down words I heard randomly or at some instance, I just literally put my feelings on paper. Basically, I would always write at times when I am depressed or when something pops out of my mind. As I always say, I would rather write than talk.  ‘Twas my legit fall back from reality, to be able to profess my views and beliefs. Well, I never assumed that my paper works were useless, but sometimes, I might think of it as a taken for granted bits and pieces of who I really am.

Until one day, I was just surfing the net and I thought of searching for a part time job mainly being an online writer since I have a night shift job, and I supposed I have lots of free time to make this interest more interesting. I really didn’t expect that I will be accepted as a writer at essays.ph, which was definitely a blast. Mind you, that really came to a realization that I am not just nothing when it comes to writing, that I can also do it creatively and put my heart into every word I will inscribe with my pen or my keyboard, and don’t forget about the bonus points that will surely keep every writer on track.

So, what are the perks of being an essays.ph writer? Well, aside from the online convenience and an opportunity to all frustrated and aspiring writers like me who cannot make it a full-time career, they offer the kind of appreciation I would always crave for. Rather than being content of just having your writing skills hidden, you will get paid in every work/assignment you will be doing with them. You can also interact and share your thoughts to others writers, be friends with them and also learn from them. So there, as simple as ABC but as challenging yet fulfilling kind of satisfaction every writer would want to develop and acquire.

Lastly, one would not become a writer just for the sake of producing money. A writer will never be disheartened. They will not stop writing because it’ll always be their passion, for writers will always be writers, writing from their hearts and sharing stories once ignored and often untold. I can also say that as for me, writing (and reading as well) will always be a part of me. I would always want to share my thoughts and believe that I can also inspire other people with my words.

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BASS

When I first saw you, I wasn’t sure if the person on my mind was really you. I watched the live performance of you and the band for the first time. I took photos of you in order to share them with my friends since they know you more than I do. Perhaps, I just knew your face and your name; nothing more, nothing less. But there was this one time when I sent you a tweet and you replied back. Right after that, I was so amazed how you suddenly knew my name the first time we had the chance to talk to each other, and that meant a lot to me. From that day on, I got to know you better on Facebook, Twitter and gigs. I also got the chance to chat you on Facebook, and I admit I became too attached. Sorry if it seemed like I always wanted your attention, maybe it’s just because what I feel was new to my system that’s why I reacted more expressively than other people around. But more than that, I want to thank you. Thank you for always being kind and approachable. It’s such a great feeling that I had the opportunity to be a fan of the band, to be your friend and a girl who only wanted to be appreciated like how you did, and the way you did it. Well, I could not tell stories of each and every gig I had attended. But believe me when I say that those memories will never be forgotten and will forever be treasured. And there was this one time, one gig that would always haunt me, a surreal moment that struck me deep within. Yes, that was really how it matters until now. You congratulated me on my achievements. You said I’m cute, which was kind of disturbing knowing the fact that I’m too young for you. You placed your arm on my shoulders like you’re a brother. You held my hand and played with it for a while. And when it’s time to say goodbye, you kissed my forehead. I was aware that you’re drunk that time but it really didn’t matter. I still believe that you know what you’re doing then, and I got dumbfounded. I didn’t know what to feel and what to react at that very moment. It left me hanging for days, weeks, months and even as of this day. I know that I should not expect anything from you or from anyone else. I am truly aware that I am not the type that you’ll like or love romantically. Maybe those were just friendly gestures you always do even to other girls around, who you got to hang out with. I know there are many girls out there who also feel the same way like I do towards you. But then, even if it feels weird now, I just wanted you to know that for me, you really are a great catch. You’re the boyfriend material. How I hope and wish to be loved by you in return but I know it’ll never gonna happen. By the way, ‘twas nice to know you, I’ll find someone like you, SOON.