OVERDUE

It's hard to trust someone, especially if you know that he/she can make a bluff out of everything. It has been awhile, but it seemed like it was all the same - same ache, same feeling, same kick, same LOVE. All this time, I'm trapped and cornered, like I'm getting nowhere. All along, I thought I have moved on and I can just throw it all away. But time passed by, and now, in just a glimpse, everything comes back like there's nothing happened. Somewhat, it feels like it hasn't been years of waiting. I feel that it's a brand new day, a new start for me to find out what has been lost. But suddenly, I came to a realization that somehow, it can be true, it can be a frank or it can be just a wild joke. How will I know? How can I possibly figure out what's wrong if the moment feels so right for me - if I love it all through out? Even If i know that it is impossible; that it can't be real. Why? Because I just know it since Day 1. I know it can't be me, it won't be me, and it's merely not me. But still, I pushed through. I made it a try because it's all I ever wanted. Unfortunately, luck is not on my side. I just have to let it go. Maybe, it's just their way of saying, "Happy Birthday! This one's for you temporarily. Just for us to see how you will react and how you'll be happy in this short span of time." See? I am wrongly overwhelmed.